EMOTIONS

Have you ever had a feeling of loss or sorrow which manifests as a deep sadness? Sometimes it's momentary and other times it can linger. I had a personal experience with this recently, and the sadness is still present. Because of its nature, I decided to share it with you.

A little over a month ago, I began having pain in my left lower abdomen. Since I've had Fibromyalgia for twenty years, I wasn't worried. I consulted a doctor after it persisted and learned that it was serious. I needed a total hysterectomy immediately. Although there was a good chance that it could be cancerous, I felt that it was not. Fortunately I was right. Everything was benign including a large ovarian tumor that surprised everyone.

My physical recovery is progressing nicely. However, I have a lingering deep sadness that I had not expected. Eventually I realized that I was really grieving a loss...a loss of the womb.

Women are looked upon throughout life as daughters, mothers and grandmothers. Whether a woman bears children or not, she always has the place within her where new life develops. What happens when she is stripped of the womb? If she feels a loss of identity as a woman, she might grieve. This grief may manifest as a deep sadness.

Although this may sound strange to some, I truly believe it. At first I was scolding myself for being so sad because I had the best outcome...no cancer. Fortunately, a friend and even one of my doctors, mentioned grief. Once I accepted that I was grieving this loss, it began to lessen.

The sadness is still there among all of the other emotions. I'm riding the wave even now, but I wanted to share this. Life gives us many opportunities to experience emotions that we often categorize as happy times or sad times. This one has offered me both. For that, my friends, I am truly grateful.

Written for you with Love and Blessings,
Barbara Rasp

http://www.wisdomsvoice.com/


I walked a mile with Pleasure.
She chattered all the way.
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

I walked a mile with Sorrow.
And ne'er a word said she;
But oh, the things I learned from her
When Sorrow walked with me.

Robert Browning Hamilton, "Along the Road"